[if he can't speak to it from experience here, so much the better. this isn't a feeling that flayn would wish on anyone. she can only hope that shess's experience with this sort of thing was so long ago that it is not uncomfortably fresh.]

...even if I could speak with him, I do not know that he would want to hear what I have to say, anyway. [...] Were he in his right mind, he would have wanted to be caught. I am sure he must be some measure of relieved that he was, now.

But I wanted better than this for him, so I suppose - I suppose the two of us would be at odds, if we could speak, even now.